Five Pregnancy Tests Later and Wow, I Think I'm Really Pregnant

My boyfriend and I just made it official in September of 2023, we have known one another for five plus years, but the stars never aligned to take it romantic but then it did!

We went out on another date night, when I noticed that Pam (the woman who comes once a month, IYKYK) still hadn't arrived. One thing about my Pam, she either is early or on time, she has never arrived late not even fashionably.

The First Test: Two Lines and Me

Nothing dramatic—just a quiet, anxious feeling humming beneath my skin. My boyfriend was still asleep, snoring beside me, and I made my way to the bathroom like I was doing a walk of shame.

Something in me knew. I grabbed the pregnancy test I’d stashed in my cabinet, maybe a month ago—just in case.

As I sat and waited for the results, those five minutes stretched into eternity. My brain went into full spiral mode: Could I really be pregnant? I’d made it to 29 without even a close call. Not one pregnancy scare, not one frantic trip to the pharmacy.

And now? Here I was, thinking about all the random vacations I’d taken, the joy of impulsive weekend plans, my gym memberships (which I thought made me a Gym Head). Basically, I was mourning my freedom before the test was even dry.

Then my phone alarm buzzed.

I slowly glanced at the sink, and there they were: not one, but two bold, undeniable pink lines. My heart started racing. My eyes blinked fast, as if that would make the lines disappear.

Was this real? Was I hallucinating?

I leaned in closer. Nope, still there.

Immediately, I reached for my phone. “Just found out I’m pregnant… now what?” I typed into Google, hoping someone, somewhere, had a step-by-step manual for this moment. The first article said something about how up to 20% of pregnancy tests can show false negatives.

Was I in that 20%? Was this a dream? Was I supposed to take another test? Call someone? Cry?

Instead, I just sat there—on the toilet (flushed and washed my hands of course), holding my phone, looking at the test like it had personally betrayed me. Because no matter what one thing was clear: something in my life had shifted.

Forever.